Why is it that every time I have too much coffee I become convinced that I can do anything? It has to be a pretty massive dose, but then my brain starts spinning out webs of possibility that I convince myself are feasible in the face of overwhelming personal historical evidence to the contrary. It is at times like these that I come up with ideas like...
- I'm gonna start working out 5 days a week
- I'm gonna write a blog post every week
- I'm gonna get a black-belt in every martial art ever created
- I'm gonna become fluent in Korean and Spanish, and then, just for fun I'll throw in Mandarin!
- I know! I should write a book! A vampire novel! Yea! Fuck, if Stephanie Meyer can get published in that genera anyone can! Oh! and seeing as how vampires are immortal, I should make it a historical fiction so that people can learn at the same time that I am entertaining them with my witty prose and morbid imagery!
What I can't decide is whether it is sad or noble that when the caffeine rush wears off, I don't let go of these delusions. I Clutch to them like life preservers in the sea of my growing apathy. It is due to these ridiculous notions that
- i make it to the gym at least 2 times a week
- you ever get a blog post out of me
- I continue to study different martial arts when time and the budget allow
- I continue to study the language of the whatever country i'm in even if its only once a week for a short time
- I have made it through 4 different audio lecture courses on roman history.
If i can just make the leap from stubborn to dedicated I could be the man i want to be... Oh well... the rush is wearing off now... I'll keep trudging along. There is another blog that is partially finished about our trip to jeju, but its getting long and I thought I'd post this one in the mean time just to get something up.
2 comments:
Haha love you babe. I think we both can be faulted for our random delusions of grandeur. At least we tend to get SOMEWHERE with them, instead of just saying 'fuck it' altogether and not doing anything with our lives :o).
Very well-written. You're a good blogger, kiddo!
As to the coffee effect, I'm not sure that happens to me. I just get in a state where I can't goto sleep, however tired I might be... :)
By the way, I'm pretty sure I still have your copy of Twilight. Hah.
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